|I have left the building...
||[Jan. 31st, 2007|02:14 pm]
For the past two months I've been dreading this day. Most days I look forward to seeing my coworkers, discovering what kinds of problems I can solve, and creating something new. I wanted to be a part of something where tomorrow was going to be much better than what I started with today. Today was not one of those days, not even close. Today was overcast, both in terms of the weather and in terms of the atmosphere. Today involved taking all my tools and all my memories, packing them up into a box, and shipping that out of the office. Today involved taking every spare scrap of paper to the shredder, no matter how relevant it was to the former future of that office. Today involved taking apart all of the future, packing it up, shipping it off, and hoping that it finds the correct destination. Today the San Diego office was closed.
This all started at the end of November, when several people at the corporate office discovered that their jobs were being eliminated. Nobody let us know anything at that point about our future. Rumors started flying immediately, and the corporate office was not doing anything to squash those rumors. Several days later they finally let us know about our future. Nobody was surprised by the announcement, nobody was dismayed, everyone had already resigned themselves to the fact that decisions were already made.
Between that day and this day, several things have happened. Several coworkers have found other jobs and left for those greener pastures. New coworkers were hired to preserve what we have done and create a new future. The plans they have for the future and for the work are unclear at the moment, but there is a future, and it is being planned.
I didn't want to be a part of this. I knew I couldn't stop the disassembly, but I didn't want to witness it, I didn't want to be a part of it, and I didn't want to remember it through any other lens other than my imagination. Still, what I got today was an opportunity to make tomorrow better than what I started with today.